May 1, 2007

Lacking Lesbians

I feel like I'm seriously lacking lesbian culture lately. I find myself lusting after unattainable straight girls and even questioning if that cute sensitive guy is worth a second thought...

There are no other queer girls in my group of friends.. and I'm not dating anyone who has other lesbian friends like the last girl I dated.. I don't really get into the whole gay scene in Detroit/Ann Arbor.

I just got done reading Look Both Ways the book I mentioned previously..
And the L Word is on it's little break!

What is a gay girl to do?!

I get my kicks by convincing my straight girl friends to kiss me while slightly intoxicated (please note that this always work.. )

That leads me to ponder my straight female friends, especially after reading that book... I've noticed how much my friends have evolved since my coming out. Many of my old and new friends have never had gay friends.. and if they did it was a guy, I was their first "lesbian" .. My friends are so wonderful and open minded now, so accepting. I'm a lucky girl.. But I really can't help but notice how comfortable they've become with their own sexuality since knowing me. I can't take all the credit.. but I've really pushed my friends to embrace their sexuality be it straight bi or gay.. be it inactive or active.. be it boring or kinky... and they're really warming up. My newer friends that are new to homosexuality are always asking questions about it, which I'm fine answering.. and it pleases me that they feel comfortable asking away. I just hope I can provide them with a good example.

It's funny, we always joke about where we all stand on a Kinsey like scale (which is really irrelevant because it's one dimensional.. there is a much better 3 dimensional scale out there that I'll have to post about later..) anyways.. they're number has grown increasingly more gay friendly.. one friend has gone from a 2 to a 5 on a 1-10 scale (1 being way straight 10 being so so so gay).. another friend claims to be a 4 not bad? I think I'd be a 7.635 on that scale ..anyways.. NOT BAD! Not that I think I'm proving the conservative right by recruiting women to be lesbians.. (OK.. but i wish i was).

Oh.... no l word, no lesbians around, no good lesbian movies... I'm sort of itching for something exciting. Then again why do I have to be surrounded by lesbian things.. I'm not just a lesbian.. blah it's one of those struggles.. am I making my sexuality to big of a part of me, I think I am.
I'm not just a lesbian.. that's a just a part of me..

Sigh.. Good news though. Beth Ditto, the lesbian rocker from The Gossip started her own Advice Column in G2.. Google it!

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Try your best to find Butterfly (Hu Die). My favourite lesbian film, made by a female director, it’s a Hong Kong film and is absolutely lovely. Also there’s a Taiwanese film called Spiders Lilie (Ci qing) which won an award at the Berlin Film Festival this year.

haha advice from beth ditto...sounds like comedy gold :)

-paradroid

ps: i'm now living in Brighton argubly the gayest town in the UK and i've found a bar that does Lesbain Mud Wrestling... ;)